YSaturday, June 14, 2008
My grandpa just passed away...
Its 12.31am, June 15, Sunday... father's day... and i cannot celebrate it.
My grandpa passed away last night, June 14 on round 12.30am?! or 1.30am?! No one told me the exact timing...
Recently i been rushing to and fro from TTSH visiting my grandfather. He has been admitted there like since Wednesday morning...
On Wed morning, June 11, 12-1am... my mum woke me up and told me that they are going to TTSH, it turns out that my grandpa had a heart attack... I waited for them at home till they return at 4.30-5am in the morning, they told me my grandpa was fine, then i went to sleep. I cab down with my grandma, sister, aunt and cousin in the afternoon to see him. he was OK i guess... not exceptionally well, but not tt bad either. Then i went for french class at night till 10pm... was super tired. but class was fun... it was a 1 and a half hour lesson and Ricky was late for like 1 hr?! haha... the bottom line is... class was fun and i learnt alot.
On Thursday June 12, late morning, i went out with yuling to Chinatown, then walk over to Clarke quay to meet her 2 sisters and walk to lunar to see lollipop, as her sister wanted to see. but when we got there the queue was freaking long, so we decided not to go. i saw my junior bee lay there queueing up too, was quite shock. We hang out for a while then i went home. then i cab down to TTSH with my grandma to see my grandpa.
On Friday, June 13. In the morning, my aunt called me to say that i better go see my grandfather. his condition worsen overnight and might just pass on anytime. So i went with my grandma and met my aunt and cousin there. He look week and tired with the oxygen mask and all. it was quite depressing to see. We stayed till late noon the i brought my cousin to my house. My grandpa neighbouring bed person told us that my grandpa went hysterical last night, out of no reason. He kick till one nurse fell and 4 person had to hold him down. He pull out all the plug from his hands and they had to put it back but he does not cooperate, so when i went to see him, his bed got a few drip of blood, and his hands there was blood as well. it pains me to see him like this. weak and breathless. When my parents and siblings when to see him at night, they came back telling me that my grandpa may not make it through the night.
On sat, 14 June, 12.30-1.30am, he passed away. My mum broke the news to me on the phone at 3am. I woke my bro and sis and told them the news, but they went back to sleep. My bro even asked me :" are you kidding me?!" and went back to sleep. When my parents broke the news to me, i didn't feel like crying. instead, i felt like vomiting. i dunno why. the feeling lasted until i had my breakfast.
I kept awake till my parents came back. I went online to search for the funeral stuffs. I went to meet my uncle to show him the coffin design online at mac and had my breakfast there. then i went back to rest awhile and then went to my grandma house for the funeral. i didn't cry or felt like crying all this while. BUT! i cried when i saw my grandpa in the coffin. I dunno why, When i see his make -up on, i felt that it doesn't look like my grandpa at all. Knowing my grandpa, if he was alive, he would tolerate it at all. i just cried. My bro say i cry for all the lame reasons. Then when i went through the prayers, we had to walk round the coffin, i cried again when i see his make-up. And when i talk to my bro abt the make-up again, i cried.
So now is 15 June, i am going back to the funeral later. haiz. Its quite sad as today is father's day and i cannot celebrate it with my grandpa. This coming Thurs is his birthday as well, so its kinda sad. as his funeral wake will end on Wednesday and his birthday is on Thursday. We must always treasure those around us now, before it is too late.
How i wish you were there when i needed you,
To wipe my tears when it roll,
To lend me a shoulder to lean on,
But here you are pushing and accusing me of having someone else on my mind
When you have don't even know the only person i want is you!
i miss you,
will you ever know?
Rest in Peace grandpa. I will miss you.
::CheRyL::
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