YThursday, September 13, 2007
There was an earthquake yesterday.. whoa... i could feel it when i was at home la... i was sitting at the living room and watching TV.. when i felt my body moving for no reason... it was kinda mild... at first, i thought i was giddy and i keep trying to balance myself and everything... i thought the problem was me..then i ask my father whether he felt anything anot... but he thinks i was kidding with him la and didn't take me seriously.. but after a few minutes, my neighbour came knocking at my door... they was asking us whether we felt the shaking as they felt it... they say that they were having dinner when it happen, it was shaking until the picture frame hanging at their wall tilted at the side and the water at their fish tanks was like moving la... the vibration was much stronger on their side... this show that i was not joking with my dad la...
was bored after that so i decided to draw... haha...didn't draw for like quite sometime... so please pardon me... 
*The above images are suitable for 18 and above*Today, i accompany my grandfather to Tan Tock Seng Hospital(TTSH) for his day surgery... i had to wait for him at TTSH for a few hours... really bored and nothing to do... while waiting for my grandfather to be done with his eye surgery, i remember doing my laser surgery a few years back on my head... i was so nervous... and it was damn pain... i was conscious when they operated on me... so... physical pain is unavoidable... when they shave an area on my head to let the doctor see better... tears started to roll... they said that they will sew the area back so there won't be a evident bald spot...i still cried... and when they injected the medicine to make the area on my head numb, it wad damn pain as the medicine touches the nerve... i was like crying my heart out as the pain is really...... but the worst thing to come was the emotional pain that i had to endure for a few day as i had to wrap my head in a bandage after the operation... the bandages was not like just over my head, but it went under my chin as well... i look damn ugly with it on la... whats more is that the human head is not of a fixed shape... so i just cannot describe the way i look when i had the bandage on... my self-esteem was so low at that point as i felt that i look so hideous la... when the nurses started to tie the bandage under my chin, i move away and ask her"do you really have to do that??? whey not just put it round my head..." after i came out of the operation room, i was so ashamed of the way i look and tried to get out of the National Skin Clinic as fast as i could have... i dun want people staring at me, thinking what had happen to me... then when my dad when to pick me up... one look at me and he say " wah... that bad arh... have to put such a big bandage" i know at that point he didn't meant it to be sarcastic or anything, but my self-esteem hit rock bottom, so i took every single comment very personally... when i reach home, my brother and sister saw me and was like "wah..." i got so upset and cried... i felt like a freak at that point... i cry alot at that point of time, i cry when i face the mirror, when hear the smallest comment or even upon hearing my name when people talk behind my back...... i cry just thinking about the operation.... i was really emotional... so when i sat at the hospital today, seeing all the patients there waiting for their op, some guy had like metal things piercing into his leg, one old man was like having a cast on his neck.... i really think that we should just give them a smile instead of staring at them and looking away when they noticing you were looking... a smile is all it takes to make them feel better... now, looking back then... i am really glad all this is over......
~CheRyL~
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